The Couch

Is where I have been sitting for the past 3 days. So, after being off work sick for 3 days and doing absolutely nothing - which drove me insane (actually I did do something, will elaborate later) I dragged myself off my bum today as I felt a bit better.


My mission was to tackle my mothers loft as I have all of my life stored up there. Sadly as I no longer have a home of my own I have taken over the loft to store my bits (more like tons) of stuff in the vague hope that one day I will eventually have my own place again ... ha bloody ha! Anyway, my Mum will soon be moving so I thought that it was about time to sort my things out and get them all organised so that they can be moved into her new loft ...


Did that take some time. Good grief. And there went my back at the same time. After four hours of moving boxes and balancing on little strips of wood, falling over clutter and throwing a cup of milo out the hatch to spray far and wide below, up the walls and everything else, I was also struggling to walk! So, I left it at that and will attempt it again tomorrow morning. Hmm, well, we'll see.


So after that joyful experience, I limped home to sit on the couch again - since I love it so much - eat Chinese, and watch Bridget Jones. I realised that (and this is only after watching Pride & Prejudice) that they are both very similar. Bridget Jones is a modern Pride & Prejudice. Anyway, I digress as usual, Bridget Jones has nothing to do with me sitting on the couch ... apart from the fact that I feel just like her at times (except I so do not say such stupid things and hope to God I never will!!) but apart from that (and the big knickers actually lol) a vodka and a cigarette will solve just about any problem!!

Being Sick ...

Is truly bloody miserable. My word. Its ok when there are people at home and you can whinge and be looked after by someone or be cuddled by your partner (well that wouldn't be happening with me anyway as after a year he's STILL in another country) but when you're sitting home alone it is soooo boring!

I came home half day yesterday, and that was ok, I pottered about, slept, caught up on emails whilst cuddled up under the duvet ... but today! Man! I was in bed until after 12 and time still dragged. It seems to go even slower when you feel rubbish, and today was no exception!

I spent enough time staring at my laptop screen so that I may just as well have done to work lol. Although I did fall asleep watching Obelix & Asterix - when was the last time anyone watched that?? Its wicked ... although I did fall asleep. Will have to finish it tonight!

Apart from that, not a lot going on ... Hopefully by the morning I will be well enough to drag myself into work!

Hurt

I have just added the Video Bar to my blog, and the first song I loaded was Johnny Cash, Hurt. This song is so so true and so heart wrenching. It makes me cry whenever I listen to it.

I think its so amazing, the life he had, the chances he had, the opportunities, and he would give it all up for the one person he loves - for anyone that doesn't know, he released this song not long after June's death. It was written by Trent Resner of Nine Inch Nails originally, and is an amazing song, no matter who covers it.

This song really makes me think, about love and life and whether we have something that we would give up everything for. Surely, if you do, that must be an amazing feeling; to have that someone that you would give up everything and everyone for - giving it up shouldn't be hard.